I'm super frustrated that I live in a city/world/lifetime where everyone talks about "catching feelings" like it could be the worst thing to happen to them.

Everything is supposed to be extra fucking casual these days.

I get it. We all need to protect ourselves. I'm one to talk, cause I keep men at an arms distance away from me at all times. You'll never find my heart on my sleeve, hell—it might not even be in my chest right now. Actually, its probably much closer to my brain at the moment. Yep, that's exactly where my heart is. It waits on my brain to logically evaluate all situations in which involve me "romantically." (Note: heavy emphasis on the use of quotation marks)

So in actuality—I'm the worst.

My closest homie at work is constantly calling me out on my conflicted ways: "I think you came to New York expecting you could just hook up with guys, but you realized you didn't enjoy it." "Your ex was a huge asshole, but you openly admit you have a thing for clever jerks." "You're afraid to catch feelings, yet you would eventually like to be in a relationship again."

I make no sense to him, and I want to throw a book at him whenever he's right.

I realize I make no sense. So here I am, complaining that everyone is fearful to catch feelings, however I am Fort Knox on lock down. Guarded as fuck.

I have a damn good reason though, I don't know about the rest of you… JUST SAYIN. =P Plus, I'll catch feelings when the right dude comes around, at the right time, with the right mentality… until then, its just not right.