If there is anything I've had to answer over the course of a single month, constantly, it is the following question:

"Why / how are you still friends with him?"

Real talk? Its because I can handle it.

Truthfully, its quite easy. Despite the hell he dragged me through, and trust… I was dragged… I've managed to want to keep him in my life as my friend. Our marriage didn't work out, but I refuse to throw away a friendship of 17 years.

If my life was not progressing as smoothly as it is right now, I might have a different opinion on how I handle my shit. As I've expressed—my life is amazing. I've accepted that the demise of my romantic relationship with him is all apart of some greater plan of which I am completely clueless about.

Our lives are individually moving forward in ways we could not accomplish together, coming to terms with this has been difficult, but its reality and I've managed to handle it as gracefully as I can. My friendship with him has always been a positive experience, so I keep him on my team in that capacity. I'm good about separating the husband I've needed to divorce and the man who has been my friend for the past 17 years. Yes, they are two separate people.

Although I said "deuces" to a husband, I still have the friend who knows me inside and out and I simply cannot throw him out.