It’s all hitting me now. The hustle and bustle of the holiday season has winded down. I’m glad my ass has gotten through another Thanksgiving and Christmas single as fuck. Most of me was too preoccupied on leaving NY. Distractions… I’m telling you. I’m a master of distractions.

I live here, again. I know I said that already but I need to keep reminding myself.

I have a “nothing was the same” scenario going on right now, and that is perfectly fine with me. Ask me how long I’ve wanted to describe something as “nothing was the same.” The answer is “forever.” Anyways… Nothing is the same because it’s all brand new.

I guess I should be excited but I’m also fucking anxious.

I knew I should expect that. I’m just saying…. I’m just rambling…

I’m slightly freaking out because I said goodbye to a good life in NY. I still have no regrets, but I have to watch my words because I talk about it like it’s the present when it’s actually the past. Some nights I still think I’m headed back to Brooklyn, I get updates from my old job from my friends, I’m still connected… somehow. I’m constantly adding 3 hours to whatever time it is cause I don’t want to be the dick who sends a text at 1am (AHEM*COUGH).

Don’t get it twisted though. I’m not conflicted. I’m just transitioning…

I’m trying to figure shit out over here, and I’m starting from scratch. This is going to take a while. My stability in NY didn’t come overnight, so I don’t expect that here either. It all came together over time, and when it all finally did, I decided I was ready to come back to Cali. I sound crazy.

I’m telling you… complex stimulation… Shrugs.

So instead of talking about how amazing 2014 was, this is my last entry for the year. Cheers to the new and the unknown and everything 2015 has in store for me. I usually have an “I see you” attitude but I’m not even going to lie… I have no clue what kind of ride this is going to be.

Hopefully its fucking amazing.