Fucks Given: Zero

A year and some change ago I was a completely different person. I was a perpetually nagging wife trying to force-fit my negligent husband into an ultra-conventional lifestyle. I was type-A on five thousand levels. I was the epitome of a neurotic control freak. I was only doing what I thought was right at the time. We were trying to start a family, we were saving money to buy a house, I was just trying to get us there…

I put so much time, effort and stress into this picturesque life I created with ex-Mr. We were so fucking good on paper. Eventually he could no longer reciprocate the level of commitment I was putting in and we fell apart.

I woke up one day and the universe told me: "You can't control shit."

I was lost.

That's when I received my biggest life lesson to date. I learned that there is no point in worrying about matters you have zero power over. Its amazing how much unnecessary energy we exert into stressing about situations in which we cannot control. And trust me—there is so much we have no control over.

Things work out when and how they are supposed to. If you believe in a higher power, this is known as faith. If something is meant to be—it will be. Its the only reason I've survived this long. Without my belief system I would not be as strong or motivated as I am today.

I will always and forever be a responsible person, that will never change. I'm just done stressing out my brain and body with issues that may or may not be as significant as I assumed in the first place.

Fucks given: ZERO.